I don't know where the nerves came from, but I did it.
I am participating in Angie's Spoken Word Blog from Still Life with Circles. Angie came up with this brilliant idea of reading a post via video. It is amazing the comfort you get when you hear a post or a blogger read something that is sooo personal. I am comforted by the fact that these babyloss moms do exist. You read their post and try to feel their emotions at that exact moment- but there is nothing like hearing them and even seeing them. Thank you ladies for your bravery and courage to unite and share your deepest emotions and your babies' legacy with the world!
Here is a little disclaimer...I did ONE take on this! I thought I would try it again without crying, but I thought "na, screw it!" This is what you get, tears and all! Just like I like it, RAW emotions. This is as real as it gets. I didn't get a 2nd take on May 9th, so why should I get one now...
Please excuse the horrible lighting and all around bad picture; I usually look more put together than this.
I was crying right along with you. There are so many things we never thought we'd have to do... as parents who've lost a child... never in a million years. I'm sending you many hugs and prayers, mama!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading this so bravely and for sharing yourself and your tears with us. I'm so sorry you've had to do all of these things that no parent should ever have to do.
ReplyDeleteSo much love to you and your beautiful little Sam.
I tried to leave a comment earlier but I think blogger deleted it! Anyways, THANKS for posting, it was the kick-in-the-butt that I needed to record mine too.
ReplyDeleteI remember this post from the first time you posted it, but hearing it read aloud gave me goosebumps. It is just sad and raw and perfect.
Stillbirth is such a cruel, cruel trick. I am so sorry your precious son Sam is not here.
ReplyDeleteHe's beautiful.
xo
I was crying with you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry.
Sending love to you and your sweet Sam.
This was hard for me because as you know it is hard for a mother to watch her child in pain. I did it for you and for Sam. I am so proud of you for doing this for yourself, Sam and all the other child loss parents and families. I love you beyond words.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words spoken with so much love. Thank you for being brave enough to post this video. I'm so sorry, no parents should have to do those things, it breaks my heart that you had to do these things for your Sam.
ReplyDeleteI'm so deeply sorry for the loss of your precious son xo
THANK YOU for sharing this. I am sobbing - for you and for your family and for your beautiful SAM and for me, because I have said the same things about my baby girl too. These are horrors that no mother should know and I am so very sorry that you do.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this. My heart breaks for anyone who has ever had to experience this. Its not fair that a moment that should be beautiful and joyous can turn out to be so devastating and heartbreaking. You are a very brave and strong woman, and I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
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