In the car last night on our way home from gymnastics and she is having a conversation with me about a boy at school and how he has a bunk bed (she is mildly obsessed with bunk beds after having a sleep over with her cousins Angelica and Gabby). For what ever reason she switches her conversation to Sam and her is what she said...
"-you won't have to cry" "-I will bring Sam down with my hands" Sam will sleep in my bed."
Of course, I well up with tears. She recognizes this and says, "Mommy are you crying?" I told her, "No, I'm okay." I don't want her to think that every time she brings up Sam that I will cry. I tried to reassure her that I would do anything to bring her brother back so she could do those things with him.
Michalina is my guiding light in this storm, without her I don't know where I would be.
by the way, I am still trying to do the spoken word blog thing, I just can't read any of my entries out loud without crying yet. But if you do it, I'll do it too! (I have no idea how to record a video though)
ReplyDeleteI think I will try doing the post tonight. As for working a video, I am sure you can find a "how to" video on Youtube. You find anything on YouTube :-)
ReplyDeleteJust so you feel a bit better...I have yet to find one that I won't cry all the way through.